the.clocktower

heading to nj by way nyc for concert this weekend and decided to try my nifty new phone that can actually handle loading webpages.

nothing much has been going on with me besides omg back pain like whoa. i have two areas of herniation (l5 and s1) and it totally sucks. i feel like a walking talking pharmacy.

anyway. nyc yay! concert yay! half a skein of koigu that never seems to end for neice's sock yay! traffic boo! will try to post more often, but it'll probably have to wait until after the weekend. XD

Today has been a wash. I didn't get anything that I wanted to get done done.

I couldn't fall asleep last night since there was not a single position in the universe that was comfortable. Not my stomach or my back or one either side even with the whole pillow between the knees thing. Eventually exhaustion kicked in and I passed out. Of course this morning I had an appointment with the chiropractor again, but I almost missed it since I hit snooze on my alarm clock one too many times and overslept. :( Of course I decided afterward since I could actually lay down and sleep, I'd do just that for a couple of hours before I had to get up and do things like eat and go to another appointment which I just got back from. It was not a fun sort of appointment.

Anyway, I've been meaning to post photographs that I've taken since that's one of my new hobbies that I'm enjoying a lot. My therapist is pleased with this progress and today suggested that I look into photography classes which I already was, but it's nice to have a bit of confirmation...

( Only a couple, but they link to my flickr and you can see the rest there )

Anyway, I have been feeling exhausted and strung out lately and I'm hoping that feeling which is so close to feeling like a panic attack goes away so I can start writing. On the upside when it comes to writing I think I've made a little headway since I was doing some very entertaining research for my snarry_games fic by means of watching an amusing half documentary and half reality tv show. It was fun way of learning weird little things that I didn't know before. :P

So I'm totally trying to get back into the whole posting thing. We'll see how it goes. :D I'm pretty enthralled with this new service and it makes cross-posting so much easier and because I'm lazy (and on a mac, so no semagic for me) the need to crosspost just makes everything harder when it comes to writing posts in the first place. :P

Anyway, I hurt my back again this winter probably when I slipped on the ice and fell on the steps, so I've been going to a chiropractor after it got just that bad. It's interesting since the last time I had back problems I went the Ortho/Sports med route with lots of PT that I hated. This is easier and is working faster. He's a nice Russian dude who has a talent to find a topic of conversation that both of us can enjoy during the whole adjustment which is nice because I feel relaxed and comfortable while I'm there and since I hate doctors of all sorts this is a good thing. Still a little stiff, but it's getting better. :D

Fandom wise, I need to get back into a writing mood. I don't think it's going to be hard, but at the same time I need to be able to focus in order to write and I've been having massive focus issues for over a year now. Lots of watching new shows and stuff and the bunnies should be coming, but they aren't. Part of this not being able to write is why I've gone to knitting and photography as a creative outlet.

I should probably be studying for my exams, but part of me doesn't actually want to. I'm not too worried about them since neither of these particular teachers are the kind to fail anyone. So by tomorrow night I have to learn all about tires and shoes and bite marks and how they leave impressions. I'm even less worried about Anatomy since I've already taken Anatomy two/three times. :D

Hi! I exist! And I'm on Dreamwidth. :P I know I've been very quiet lately. Well, for the last year, but I am around. :D Same user name since I don't want to confuse people. XD I don't have a circle policy over there or whatever yet. I'm still playing around with the options. I'm not locking anything down (at least not yet, so I won't say that I'll never lock anything down) so don't worry if I don't "grant access" or something. The whole thing confuses me a lot, honestly. I like the concept and idea, but still don't know how to balance it all. LOL!

I might be making dreamwidth my main journal since I can follow people from there and crosspost and do all sorts of awesome things, but I haven't decided yet. There are certain things that I just can't do from there. So it's going to take time until I decide. :D

Anyway... what's been up with me? Or rather where have I been? ( A whole lot of nothing )

( Snarry Games! And other bits and pieces. )

I should probably post about where I've been and what I was doing, but really, I just can't. Suffice it to say that I was in a very bad place from October until the holidays ended. I'm still not in the best place, but I'm a lot better then I was. Anyway, I wrote a fic for snarry_holidays this year, and I've just posted it over at skyhawke, so I I figured I'd link to it in case you missed. :D Yes, this is totally a fic post. :P

This is a story that's been bouncing around in my head for years and finally came together, so I'm kind of excited about that!

Title: A Fruit Tree in Winter
Word Count: 12,800 give or take a few
Rating: pg-13
Pairing: HP/SS
Warnings: AU after book six. :)
Disclaimer: Not mine, I'm just playing. If it was, I'd be richer than the Queen
Summary: Severus Snape is not pleased when a new potions brewer opens shop down the street from him.
Notes: Great thanks to my beta, Femme; everyone should thank her really, since this fic wouldn't be what it is without her. Written for paperbacked in the 2008 Snarry holidays gift exchange.

Not that the content will prove it. I have every intention of taking part in that Supreme Court Decision meme just because I can...

Daubert v. Merrell Dow Pharmaceuticals (1993)

Which was the ruling which led to the Daubert standard on how scientific evidence (in federal cases) should be treated during a trial. On a state level, the courts can use this, and quite a few if not most, do, but a lot also incorporate the old Frye standard into it. It's to keep the psuedoscience away from court cases... of course this leads to things like fingerprints (which are well established and should usually be allowed in as evidence) being thrown out by a judge since the judge becomes the "gatekeeper" of scientific evidence.

Is it any surprise that we spent weeks on this case in my criminal law class for forensic science? I didn't think so.

So...

I haven't posted here in a long time. Not really since I came back from FL and then just to post that I was back.

( In the time since... )

Right. So... What else? I should say something for all the new people on my flist. I'm a twenty something that will be living on the Green Line in Boston (starting next week) while studying for my Master's Degree in Biomedical Forensics (Yeah, that's like that CSI show except totally not...). I used to write a whole lot, now I write a little, but not anything since last year really due to circumstances beyond my control, but I've been working on some stories which I didn't lose in the harddrive crash of doom last week, thank god.

One last thing. I've probably posted to my forensics filter more than any other filter since that's where a lot of my focus tends to be. I've also had a handful of people friend me since I've created it (wow, it's going to be a year soon). So anyone who wants on, let me know and I'll add you. Warning, though, it can get a bit gruesome. Also let me know if you want off.

I am home. I've literally just walked through the door and hooked up my computer.

It took me two hours to get back from the airport. argh.

So tired.

I'm going to fall down now.

More later.

<3 Dragon

So I've a ton of things that I need to do over the next couple of days before I leave for FL in a week. Like pack. Pay bills. Get a shot so I'm in compliance at school. Among other things. *sigh*

So what am I doing instead? I am burning a billion DVDs for my sister because I don't want to bring my clunky and large external harddrive with me for one night of transferring files from my hd to hers. *headdesks* I'm currently burning #5 and I've got a handful more to go. I totally should have taken care of this forever ago, but I procrastinated. There was more fun things to do.

So, yeah, that's what I've done so far today.

( Totally haven't vanished. )

I haven't been good about posting for almost a month now. I don't know, I guess I slipped into a delayed mini depression that I'm still in and that was only complicated by family issues, that while they haven't worked out, exactly, the issue that led to them has.

Overall, I'm tired and ready for the semester to end. I finally caught up with my school assignments that I missed. (mostly it was just one class, but it was enough to drive me crazy for a couple of weeks during that whole batshit insane family issue).

Yesterday was a good day. It was fun and exhausting and even involved involuntarily watching a couple of minutes of the Boston Marathon. Ok. So, I get why people would want to run a marathon, but I don't understand the desire to watch a marathon. Maybe if I knew someone in it, but... I don't get what's so exciting about it. Anyone care to explain?

But at least I got the day off!

( writing of late )

ETA: I find this terribly amusing. The whole burying of the jersey was funny enough. I <3 Boston and the Red Sox... and in this case, I suppose I even <3 the Yankees since they're donating the jersey to charity.

Hey, I'm back.

Well, actually I've been back from Florida for a few days, but I've spent most of them sleeping. I didn't really return back to a functioning human being until about 6pm last night when I looked at my sink and decided that I needed to do dishes...

I just wanted to thank everyone who sent good thoughts my way, they meant the world to me. femmequixotic gave me the card with all of them when I went to pick up my cat (that was an adventure...) and I just... It's really sweet and awesome of all of you. Seriously. And then the flowers came and they were omg so pretty. They haven't all opened, but so so so pretty.

It's really helped knowing that so many people have been there for me. Just...

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I wanted to post about this last night, but I brought home a litle firecracker that refused to stay still! :D

As some of you might have read, femmequixotic and I went down to the local no-kill shelter and picked out kittehs this weekend! This beautiful tuxedo cat just attached itself to Femme and it was love at first cuddle. :)

I ended up picking out this extrememly friendly fellow:
( kitty! )

So this morning I went with femmequixotic to visit spiderine who is packing up the apartment to move into a new shiny one. :D One of the highlights... laughing at omg horrible professionally published gay erotica. omg, dudes, omg. *dies just thinking about it*

Anyway, I came home and apparently needed to crash. Woke up hours later. I mean, I rarely sleep really hard especially during a nap, but I was out. I don't even know. Anyway, it took me about an hour and a half before my mind was functional again, so... yeah. I think I may have been just a little bit exhausted.

Decided to write, but didn't get very far because I needed a song. This is usually not the case, so my fics never have a full soundtrack to go with them, but on occasion, I do put a song on repeat that feels right even if the lyrics are totally wrong. I sorted by artist and hit Poe before I found what I was looking for. I hope. We'll see. It's taken hours. *shakes head at self*

*opens fic and starts working*

Totally meant to post this from livejournal, but forgot. *facepalms*

Title: Into the closet
Fandom: Kyou Kara Maou
Pairing: Wolfram/Yuuri
Rating: Smut
Summary: Um... there is no plot. There's just smut. Takes place sometime in the future -- Yuuri and Murata have both finished high school and Murata is attending university.

( Wolfram looks over Yuuri's shoulder as he opens the door. 'You must be joking.' )

So my LJ extra icon feature went away and I promised myself that I wouldn't buy extra icon space. *sigh* I had to get rid of half my icons. It was very very sad. :(

Thankfully I have all the icons I really love already uploaded over here. I didn't think that it would be as bad as it was or that I actively used as many icons as do. Actively being a relative term because I'm not that active when it comes to journaling. *sheepish grin*

So lately I've been having thoughts about the writing process and my writing process specifically and what makes me want to write and when I hit a point when writing a fic that I just give up. I spent a good portion of dinner tonight talking with femmequixotic about it, and I sort of want to write a post about it and how googledocs has saved me when I didn't think that I'd ever actually like googledocs.

Suffice it to say that I've been writing a lot lately. My snarry_games fic is progressing nicely in that I'm working on structuring it just right for the type of fic it is. I have another Snarry percolating in the background for accioslash who won me in the sweet charity auction. And a couple kyou kara maou fics that I've been working on off and on. I totally had ulterior motives for pulling femmequixotic into the fandom. I'm so glad my plotting worked!

Also, snarry_games wise, I've completely recovered from the confusion of being a dragon on team phoenix. Team Phoenix FTW!

There's not much time left for bidding on sweet charity and I thought that I'd pimp it out before it ended. It's for a good cause helping those affected by the writer's strike. So click on the link. If you were wondering what exactly I'm offering, it's this:

So everyone on my flist should know already that while on occasion I do write short, it's not something that is readily suspected of me, so I am offering one medium to long (8000 to 20000 most likely) Harry Potter fic.
I'm only offering to write Harry/Snape, Harry/Draco, or Ron/Draco, however. You can check out the rest of my offer and other offers here.

:D

So, I've been watching insane amounts of anime lately. This happens every so often and once in a while I will write fic that then hides away on my harddrive for ages and usually never sees the light of day.

So today, I was in a writing mood and decided to open up a fic that I haven't worked on in forever that is actually rather close to being finished. Unfortunately it is not an HP fic. Nor is it a bandom fic. It's Kyo Kara Maoh! fic. This is actually an anime that I love for it's source material. It is pure CRACK! Wonderful, interesting crack. It doesn't pretend to be serious or anything like that. It's just fun. And it has awesome main characters that basically slash themselves. And did i mention that there is built in kidfic? I have a soft spot for kidfic...

So, yeah, I've been trying to finish up a fic that I started forever ago and having quite a bit of fun doing it. :D

(And if there is anyone on my flist that might know where I can find some awesome Yuuri/Wolfram fic I wouldn't mind a link or ten :P )

In other fannish news, I tossed my hat into the snarry_games lottery. *crosses fingers*.

Classes start up tomorrow evening. Wish me luck. :D

So last night during our weekly rpg chat, I was talking to femmequixotic and she pointed me to sweet charity... I've never participated before and this time the charity was the writer's guild foundation and I've been wanting to find a way to help support the writer's strike and lo and behold there it is...

I signed up before I changed my mind. :D

So everyone on my flist should know already that while on occasion I do write short, it's not something that is readily suspected of me, so I am offering one medium to long (8000 to 20000 most likely) Harry Potter fic.
I'm only offering to write Harry/Snape, Harry/Draco, or Ron/Draco, however. You can check out the rest of my offer and other offers here.

Signups continue until this Thursday and the bidding starts on Friday and goes through the next Saturday.

:D

So, besides school I've been writing on my merry_smutmas fic whenever I get a chance. I'm pretty sure that I'm about halfway done and the next few scenes are percolating in my head. I like it. It's different. I haven't written anything like it before. And that's all that anyone is going to find out about it except for my beta. *evil laugh*

Of course that only means something to the people that remember I used to write fanfiction a long time ago. *sighs* I have not been a writerly person in a long time. I've missed it, but other things totally took priority.

I'm enjoying Boston and don't know how I tolerated living in Florida as long as I did. The place was killing me in a way that's just hard to explain. I'm just happy that I'm not there anymore even if it did mean leaving my family behind.